So, Malodor. It's over. Had the one on one interview, today. The pure "malodor" and the pure "not malodor" jars both came up a little wonky, and by a little, I mean maybe a 6-10 point spread (out of a possible hundred), for my data accuracy. Of the 24 entries, I could only see one that was really erroneous, and three were sort of off. I don't think it was an enormous discrepancy, but it was the big screening, and I didn't nail it, period. With him showing me that, and leaning on how WAY OFF those few things were, while only glancing over my (from what I saw) fairly accurate other entries, I think he was just looking for a reason to cut me. I think he doesn't realize that because of all the feedback and data analyzing we do on Jian's panel, that I know how to read it probably as well as he does. He only let me view the raw numbers for a minute, pointing out quickly "this, this, this, this, see here, this thing, and this" and talking fast, using jargon. Only, I know the jargon, and I can read super fast.
He alluded to the fact that Nima just sort of crammed a bunch of us into the panel before she took off for Loreal, and now he was stuck with sorting us out. It was crystal clear that there were way too many of us on the panel. Hell, he didn't allude, he said that directly. It feels political, and I feel like the four of us were sort of used as pawns. Nima told us, before we left, to really stick it to Jeff if we can. Jeff's said repeatedly, "if anything went wrong, it's obviously because of Nima." Animosity much? Frankly, I dislike both of them, and the less Jeff the better. He's still my boss on Dose, but he's never around for that.
If Maureen and Christine were both perfect, and mine was even a little off, I can see why he'd shed me. I think Jeanie got cut too, for the same reason. I feel like it was a bad fit all around. I complained earlier. The only thing I'm sad about is the money. It would have been nice, at least to have it through Christmas break, then do the screening stuff after the new year. I still have my two regular panels, though Dose and Taste. Overall, I'm not upset, but the few minutes walking through the building after the meeting, back to the rest of the panel was a little anxious, like having to go back to a group and say "well, it was nice working with you, briefly, I'm not on this panel anymore, so seeya' round" After I walked out the door into the parking lot, everything was entirely fine. One nice thing was, during the interview, he was like "it's strange, because your data for Dose is dead on. Like, your stuff looks like the control. It's perfect." So...whatever. Politics.
On the very far upside, I have my Wednesdays back, and losing them for a month really made me appreciate having a day off, midweek. It was more important than I'd initially thought, as a day to spend where both Luiz and I have off, together, the one day we can spend with each other alone, normally. Also, a day to get personal things done. Or not, sometimes, as any mother/wife knows "weekends" are about the craziest time, so Wednesdays are my quiet mid-week break, in lieu of a real weekend.
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