Yesterday was the piercing day, and it was a very good day. Like last weekend, I spent this part weekend making other people happy and sacrificing my time and energy. Sometimes, it was for the great, helping Jake and Janae move in was a good experience and I know it wasn't a waste. All the drama between Devil and Stooge, and their unrequited obsession. All we set out to do was go to the bar and unwind after a long day, moving J+J, and instead, I spent the evening in the middle of high drama appeasing, and trying to comfort and do damage control. That's all I'm going to even say about that. That kind of bullshit doesn't deserve to get repeated or mulled over.
Sunday, the plan was to go grocery shopping, then spend the rest of the day relaxing. I'd planned on finishing a video game, and giving myself a pedicure. None of that happened either. Well, the shopping did, of course, because that was for other people.
Monday, though, that was all for me. Michele and I hit Bobby's Burger Palace, then went on to Southside, to see Mike for the first time in over five years. Walking in was strange. We were on good terms, I'd been there a few times after Michele quit, and we were cool. She hadn't been there since The Break Up, when she took off for Fat Cat. Mike looked at me, and greeted me with a smile. A blank smile, one that says "I know you, and I think I like you, but who the fuck are you?" Then I said "Hi Mike, I brought a friend in to see you." and then the smile got huge and genuine. It was an awkward few seconds, but everything went really well. We sat and chatted for hours. Mike was once a skinhead, and a very angry dude. Now he's Born Again, and while that normally irritates the hell out of me, I suspect he's in it for the right reasons. He;s let go of the hate, and has a real loving and harmonious kinda vibe about him. The new Zen Mike, that's got a fire in his belly for Christ. It's cool. Talking to him at length about his reptiles, piercings, people in general, ideas, the big questions, the big answers has always been a pleasure, but somehow even more, yesterday. I got my earlobes stretched to a 2, a monroe, and my nose rings put in place. I plan on seeing him more often now, for sure. The ears are going up to a 00, both my conchs are going to be pierced with a 10 ring, I plan on adding at least two more to my already double pierced eyebrow, and then probably I'll be getting some microdermal implants around my cheekbone. I'm very happy to be in contact with Mike again, for an assortment of reasons.
I think the piercings and the Wii, and the desire to get things for myself is something of a backlash towards all the energy and time I've been giving to others. Like, I seldom have a moment to myself, and when I do spend time alone, like now, I get something of a guilt trip over it, "You didn't wake me up! I miss you!". I think spending money on myself is sort of filling in for that right now, and I get less shit for it. Not *no* shit, by a long shot, but less guilty feelings.
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