Fasting and Relaxing.

I'm supposed to be fasting. I suppose I am, I didn't put any sweetener in my Lotus tea. That's fasting enough for me, and there's no cookies nearby. Just tea, unsweetened. Tomorrow morning, it's gonna be rough. Does fasting mean no clear liquids? Because I need a tall glass of something in the am, even water will make me happy. I should look that up.

I have to fast, because I'm going in for a ton of bloodwork. My doc determined, last week, that he had no "labs" on me, and is planning on fixing that tomorrow. I hope I don't faint. I hope I'm not __________ (insert any of a dozen weird maladies, here).

On Friday, I was all fired up and busting out of my skin. What a difference a few days make. I thought and thought about the whole piercing thing, and between the delayed gratification, other things I need to spend money on, and all the well meaning pointers (I mentioned piercing in my Facebook status...everyone jumped on that bandwagon) It just sort of diffused the pangs. I didn't go today. In fact, I didn't do too much, today at all. Very low energy, felt cold and gross all day, and I haven't been sleeping properly.

Yesterday seemed to be just about what I needed, though. Suzanne and I went out for a girly day. Indian food, for lunch, then we went just driving around, talking. We wound up at Whole Foods, and walked around talking food, makeup, and generally girly things. I read some cards for her, and we finished the day with Italian ices. It was supremely nice. She brought me a huge bouquet of daylilies, in yellow, white and pink. They're so perfect, they look fake, but they fill the kitchen with their light scent. She's the best wife ever. That's our joke, we're gonna leave the guys someday, and move to Vermont, get married, and open a bed and breakfast. She's probably more serious about all that than I am... I've entertained the thought of being in a relationship with a woman, in fact, before I met Irv, I was sure I was gonna wind up a lesbian, living with my girlfriend and 9 cats. But, things are so good now, with the family and our situation, so those ideas are about as distant as Jupiter.


I don't have much to write about, tonight, I'm just enjoying the process. Hopefully it puts me in a sleepy, calm headspace. I'm nervous about tomorrow morning, mainly because I get nervous about *every* doctor visits, but maybe even moreso because this one isn't on my terms. I'm not going in there because I need something, or am sick, this is a factfinding mission, and I'm worried that the facts will wind up different from what I thought.