Seriously!?

I just realized, a lot has happened since 6-16, that post that I wrote before I got bloodwork.

The results came back, that I was diabetic. The doctor put me on pills, and an 1800 calorie a day diet. The moment I heard, I filled the 'scrip, and asked Schuyler for his food journal.

The journal is a godsend. I document every single thing I put in my mouth, from a taste of dressing that I'm making for my salad, to a multivitamin, to those two cookies I ate yesterday. I learned that I was already keeping to roughly 1900 calories on a typical day, only it was mostly carbs and fat. I also learned that on daysI go out for lunch or dinner, I can eat about a thousand calories in one sitting. Things have changed, to say the least.

It's not hard keeping to 1800 calories, I don't feel deprived, I don't feel hungry, I just eat a TON of vegetables, some fruit, and have laid off butter, cream, rich, fatty meat. Most days, I hover around 13-1500, sometimes dipping down to 1100, and one day going as high as 1900. I have an appointment tomorrow with the diabetes learning doctor, and I'm downright excited to show her my food and activity journals.

Anyway, I know it's a mouthful after my whole littany of "I'm not dieting" earlier on here. I'm eating a lot of crow, I guess. I'm dreading a doctor visit, because he's the type to say "I told you so", but here I am.

I've discovered some interesting things. I don't mind being hungry, as long as I'm busy. I don't mind the tummy growling feeling. The worst time is a yawning stretch of time alone, and nothing to do. I have trouble between 3 and 6, mainly. That's why I've decided to pick up Tai Chi. It fills that time nicely, and I don't spend it obsessing about the next thing to eat. Even still, it's not too horrible, because I snack on strawberries, cucumbers, cherries, carrots, bell peppers, and stuff like that. Either that, or I eat half my lunch at lunch time (around 2, usually) and save the other have for picking at during that time.

I manage. It's strange, I never thought I would be typing these words, but I am thoroughly enjoying the pursuit of eating better, and managing my health.