Discipline

So, I'm on this whole self-discipline kick.  It came about when I woke up yesterday morning feeling like total shit. Tired, sick, sore, achy, like I had some sort of stomach flu.  I didn't had a stomach flu. I had a bad case of drank-beer-ate-garbage-and-played-WoW-all-weekend.

I look over the last few months, and I realize this is more than just a weekend lark. This is how I've been living lately. Shitty habits, too much time sitting, eating, drinking, soaking my brain in bullshit. Not focusing enough on my body and brain.

Yesterday, I began, I started counting calories, drinking more water, and today I started working out again.  I'm also going to try to blog a little every day.  I'll sit down to blog, and think "this topic is boring, I don't want to type about it." But then, I spent years typing up boring shit, and it did me wonders.

Here's why else I'm doing this. My son has some problems writing. The boy can elucidate, charm, lecture, discuss, and talk up a motherfucking blue streak. If you were to hear him express himself, you would think he's a very small adult. He reads well, too.  I thought the two went hand in hand, at first.  Since he can sit down and devour a good novel, and tell me at length in minute detail what it was about, I thought this writing thing was pure laziness.  I'm starting to feel differently.

 He has a very very hard time writing.  His actual physical writing looks like that of a toddler's.  A very young child, just discovering his hands, and his pencil.  Upon deep consideration and observation, I've decided that he needs to keep a journal. He comes home every day brimming with thoughts, feelings, drama, stories, ideas, and he will follow me all over the house talking nonstop for two or three hours straight.  We're going to channel that.  He's going to start keeping a diary, as in the good old "Dear Diary, today was a good day..." sort of thing.  I was the same age, when I started mine, and I've been journaling steadily in many forms since then.  Maybe, at this tender age, I can plant some good habits in him, some good, self actualizing, school performance enhancing habits.

I feel like he's shifted his attitude of not giving a shit, and charming his way through school, to now really worrying about his grades, and at least his near future, and now he's ready to take responsibility, and show a little discipline.  I am too.

I need to lead by example.  I get more done when I write.  I feel more accountable to myself, when I get analytical.